To be a woman

In module three, we descended. In an exercise near the end we 'spiraled back to the surface'.
After the experience I wrote the following text:

I can feel my steps. I can feel ancient wisdom walking behind me. Follows me so I can bring it back. To all.
I can feel women walking behind me. They trust me. They follow. My feet know the way. I am silent. My mind is silent. And screams. Screams, cause parts are dying. Not dying, become less strong.
I am moving to the surface. We are moving to the surface. They live in me and will make contact through me. I am a host to deliver wisdom.
I am a woman full of ancient wisdom. And will share all with all.
Slow steps. Stay in touch with every step. Further away from the center, every step is closer to the surface. And with every step I feel the group of women growing.
We are all connected.
I feel and see green misty air. Yellow features. Blue. It feels like dawn.
The sun will come up. Is coming up. The first light accompanies us. Blue, green, yellow.
It is here. The moment will come we arrive on the surface. Where people can see us. Cause I am not alone, it is not just me. It is us. All the women in me. And I represent all their beauty and wisdom and strength. And their pain and sorrow. I can hold them. And will share their beauty, wisdom and strength. And will and have learned to listen to their pain.
Now it is time for beauty, wisdom and strength. That brings this woman to the surface for others to meet. A meeting of the women from then with the women of now.
To be encouraged. To be inspired. To be a woman.

I read about the collective of the feminine, the beauty and the pain. Light and the shadow. And a woman who carries this consciously with her to the surface, to bring that wisdom to the women of now. Is she awakening to the collective feminine wound? Becoming aware which parts of her and how she lives her life are connected to that wound? And by being aware, being able to bring wisdom and growth for herself and to other women?

'Women do have a quest at this time in our culture. It is the quest to fully embrace their feminine nature, learning how to value themselves as women and to heal the deep wound of the feminine. It is a very important inner journey towards being a fully integrated, balanced, and whole human being. Like most journeys, the path of the heroine is not easy; it has no well-defined guideposts, nor recognizable tour guides. There is no map, no navigational chart, chronological age when the journey begins. It follows no straight lines. It is a journey that seldom receives validation from the outside world; in fact the outer world often sabotages and interferes with it.'

Maureen Murdock - The Heroine's Journey